I want to sleep!!!

Just want to sleep. It is 3:30 in the morning and I haven't went to bed yet. I don't want to take Tylenol PM because I will be sleeping all morning and I have things to do tomorrow. So here I am getting more stressed over not sleeping.

Enjoying the vacation

Been doing a through house cleaning from the top to the bottom. I feel hundred percent better the I have been in years. I do not feel that sickening exhausted feeling I was feeling. I finally able to sleep and more important stay a sleep. I am enjoying the new computer that my husband bought me. No more bog down and waiting thing to load either. I am teaching Aislynn and Faye how to knit and they are slowly getting the idea. They have been so determined and so patient. I thought they might get frustrated with but they did not. They just keep coming to me to fix the problem and there was some good ones... lol

I watched my daughter, Melissa feed her twin daughters baby food. How she feed each one and the other one would wait her patiently wait her turn. They getting big and one more month they will be a year old It seem only yesterday when I was trying to dress a 2 week old Lillianne,and she would kept becoming a ball.. She loved to be swaddled, and when she wasn't she would become a ball. Melissa is a good mother and she doing good. Taking it in stride, and the twins have a wonderful dad, that always helping and active father with a good sense of humor about it all. For a while, there it was Madeline and Mike, and Lillianne and Melissa For awhile, Lillianne didn't want to have anything to do with her dad.. lol Mike, would smile and say that Lilliane hated his guts and hand her back to mom..

There a couple of times me, Melissa, Mike, and a couple of friends of hers. play what i called pass the twins. They were in the Colic Stage, and we all were trying to get them to calm down, It help Melissa remain calm. Eventually she changed the formula they were drinking and it help a lot.

Methrotraxate Round Three

Feeling alot better

Stiffness and tiredness are gone, and I feel like like a human being again. Been hurting for so long, I did not know what "normal" felt like anymore. I hope I will stay this way and we caught the disease early enough to prevent joint damage.

Methrotraxate Round Two

Took the second dose of methrotraxate today. Last dose was on August, 7th. The following Saturday, I was so tired, slept most of the day. When I was awake, my movements, my brain. were in slow motion. It took an effort to do the simplest tasks. My husband, Dennis was great, and took the kids, to a family friend house so they can play with her grandson Damian. Which gave me the house to myself for the afternoon. and much needed sleep time.

I feel so much better, it is the Predizone, I know, because the Methrotraxate has not build enough in my system to take effort. I was hurting so much, for so long, I didn't realize how much pain I was in, All I could do was get thru the day mode. and I lived for the weekend when I could sleep in. I hope I can tolerate this medication well, and that I all need to control the Rheumatoid Arthritis.

Why did I get the disease, I got it from my mother, While the doctors, don't know what causes it, The doctors thank it might be a genetic link. Rheumatoid Arthritis, is a autoimmune disease. My immune system thanks my lining in my joints are a foreign object. It send out the white blood cells to attack the lining of my joints, this in turn., cause the joint to be inflamed, and eventually it will cause joint damage if not treated.

Rhemuatoid Arthiritis.

Finally know what is wrong with me. Rheumatoid Arthritis.. The pieces of the puzzle is solved.. While, I don't want to have this disease. Now I take the steps to get better and a doctor that don't thank I am crazy. I don't want have to take predizone again for the next two months while the other drug methotraxate builds up in my system. I don't know what is worse; nausea, or weight gain. One drug that will put weight on you and the other one, nausea.. If it said may cause nausea, it will on me.. I will take it tomorrow afternoon and hopefully it will be no problem taking it. All I know, is that I want to feel better. and enjoy life again.. I just too damn stubborn to throw in the towel just yet.. I doing every thing I know to help me not to gain the weight. but I get so hungry while on the Predizone. .

Peacook

Under category sometimes, camera's LCD screen don't do the picture any justice. After recent trip to an local zoo, downloaded the pictures to the computer. I was amazed at the results! I been thanking that the pictures were not good ones and were getting discouraged. Showed them to my sister n law and she asked where did i get it. I smiled and said I took it.